being caught up in a situation you don’t want to be is plain weird..but twice in the same week??? this week a person I thought was my friend managed to make our relationship estranged by deciding to change the boundaries bila any consultations…I mean..what makes someone wake up in the morning and decide you’ve become more than friends???its so weird coz you really can’t talk openly after that..now I have to analyse everything before I say it..so uncomfy..even simple things like hugs have to be analyzed for fear of sending the wrong message..gah!!!!!
another of my pet peeves..and weird situations this week..finding out a pal was lying to my face…..trouble was I believed those lies…(when someone you trust looks at you and asks “would I ever lie to you??”) and so acted on them..as in finding out the truth is just mbaya..but in public??infront of others???just cruel and unusual punishment….never have I felt the urge to scream like that…and dealing with people looking at you with pity is just the worst..gah!!!!!!!!…some people I wish I could drive off a cliff..not ati kill them..just to get them out of my face for a while…
(deep breaths taken after this..and a glass of Baileys on ice….sigh)**
