Mood is a colour

If I could use a colour to describe my mood, Grey would be the best bet….as Modo says “mathogothanio” would also be another word to describe me now..

Grey…dull..listless..sleepy…muggy…foggy…gah!!..feel like my mind is blocked..and I don’t know why..okie I lie..I do know why..but I just don’t want to think about somethings right now..so the effort of pushing them and keeping them at the back of my mind is wearing me down…. honestly..if there was an extra hard disk in my brain I could store somethings to free up space in my brain..I so would.

Listening to “Somebody already broke my heart”..by Sade…it totally describes my mood..I’d scream..if I had the energy to do so..I’d much rather be angry..or happy..this “not caring or bothering about anything” is starting to bug me..(does that mean it’s about to change? Hope so)

One of my favourite words is “Mollycoddled“…I seriously need some pampering now….Things I’d love right about now:

• Some proper sunshine..not this “now you see it..now you don’t”…I wonder if people who live on islands where its sunny almost 24/7 suffer from depression..or severe blue days..coz even if they close the curtains…the sun still streams through..and makes the room golden…hmmm.
• A long weekend with my best pals…a few evenings full of gossip and some good wine would be so good.
• A day spent in the park…eat..sleep…lazy walking along the river pretending we’re at the beach
• A good book..nothing too sappy or anything that makes me think too hard (don’t have the energy to laugh at the former..and concentrate on the latter).
• A roadtrip….a camping trip..a shopping trip…(key word here bn trip,lol)..cannot wait for the holidays!!

Random thoughts:

1). Mo Ma wrote an interesting post..bout developing a dislike for an acquaintance..I think I’m developing an intense dislike for someone..and its beginning to scare me…sooner or later it’ll begin to show on my face…hmmm…I may well soon qualify for entry to a drama school…never have my emotions been so schooled!!

2). Spent most of the past 2 days watching X-men when I should be studying…(the older Xmen cartoon..not Xmen evolution)..and the thing that struck me was how sooner or later they’d all end up with someone in the unit ama close to the unit: Jean Grey and Scott, Wolverine and Storm, Rogue and Gambet..Xavier and Lelandra.. and it made me wonder what happens to a group of friends when friends start dating friends within the same circle…interesting thought..

Songs for today:

• Sway- Michael Buble (I adore this man’s voice)
• Getting in the way- Jill Scott
• You know what’s up- Donell Jones ft Left Eye
• Got till it’s gone- Janet Jackson

Fairy Tales

I was watching the cartoon Droopy…(yes I find it hard to function bila cartoons )…In this episode, he was a knight who killed a dragon, saved the kingdom so got to marry the fair princess. Although many girls go through the phase of wishing they were were in a fairy tale (okie some don’t snap out of this phase..which is another issue altogether)…I wouldn’t have wanted to be a princess in some of those fairy tales. I mean, it was a bit unfair for you to be offered as a reward to someone just coz they killed a dragon or defeated the kingdom’s enemies or whatever. I never really thought about it til now. Isn’t it a bit demeaning to women to be treated like an object, though they may have lived happily ever after, still doesn’t change the fact of how she got to be married in the first place.

On that note, how would you feel letting someone else choose your husband for you? I was reading a story in a magazine (I think Cosmo) about this young girl (about 22) who let Reverend Moon choose her husband for her. I mean seriously, some people get to meet their betrothed on their wedding day ama some days after. She was like she felt relieved not to have to go through the minefield that is dating. She trusted her family and church enough to believe they’d be able to choose her life partner based on what they considered to be their compatible characteristics….halalala…then again, when I consider some of the idiotic men my friends and I have suffered through, I wonder if maybe, just maybe..they have a point..think about it. You’d get married to someone who’s characteristics meld with yours..hmmm

I wonder…what makes better relationships? Being with someone who’s similar to you..so you share the same interests..ama being with someone totally different from you..so you thrive on the opposites attract scenario….hmmm

Playlist:

• So emotional- Carl Thomas ft Faith Evans
• Closer- Goapele
• Sondela- Ringo Mandlingozi
• Another Rainy Day- Corrine Bailey Rae
• When I’m with you- Musiq Soulchild
• Obsession- Omarion

Cartoons….cartoons!!!

Cartoons from my childhood (okie why lie I still watch cartoons mpaka now)…This is just a lil’ list of cartoons I’ve loved..and miss now..as well as those I still penda (feel free to add on to the list):

• Muppet Babies- I adored this..used to watch it all the time. My uncle even taped episodes from the tv for us to enjoy during the holz.
• Hong-Kong Fuey- hehehehe…the ultimate fighting dog.
• Transformers-Everyday at 4pm..even when we used to visit relatives and 4 fikas…they just had to put this on.
• Aladdin- I’ve always wanted to be rescued by some good-looking man on a flying carpet…oh and I used to want a pet monkey..dunno why.
• Addams Family- Loved the cartoon so much I had to look for the program to watch..series 1 yummy!
• Scooby Doo- I’ve done the Scooby Marathon..all weekend..bit of an eye strain but it was so worth it…I love it!!!
• Inspector Gadget- A neck and arms that could be extended?? How cool is that??
• Johnny Bravo, Tom and Jerry, Flinstones, Jetsons, The Mask, 2 Stupid Dogs- Classic feel good cartoons.
• Johnny Quest
• Batman, Superman cartoons- Hot Superheroes
• All Walt Disney Flicks- From Lion King to Atlantis…sigh
• Generation O- Used to come on Stv

I want to be a child again!!!

Playlist:

• Breakdown- Mariah Carey ft Bone Thugs n Harmony
• Can you Believe- Robin Thicke
• Crush- Zhane
• By your side (Neptunes remix)- Sade

Valentia’s top 4 at 4

Having been tagged by her, here’s another list. Modo, consider thyself tagged..lol

FOUR JOBS I HAVE WORKED

1. Intern in a law firm
2. Farmhand
3. Crisis consultant
4. Child minder

FOUR MOVIES I WOULD WATCH OVER AND OVER

1. Lord of the Rings Triology (sigh)
   
2. Austin Powers (always makes me happy)
   
3. James Bond (the ones starring Pierce Brosnan only)
4. Sound of Music (my movie version of comfort food)
   

FOUR PLACES I HAVE LIVED

1. Kenya
2. Kenya
   
3. Tanzania
4. England

FOUR TV SHOWS I LOVE

1. CSI (all except CSI NewYork)
2. NCIS
3. Gilmore Girls
4. La Femme Nikita
   

FOUR PLACES I HAVE BEEN ON VACATION

1. Coastal region- Kenya
2. Moshi- Tanzania
3. Manchester- England
4. London- England

FOUR OF MY FAVOURITE FOODS

1. Roast Chicken and roast potatoes
2. Blackforest Gateau (and strawberry cheesecake)
3. Chapattis with pilau and stew
4. Nyama choma with all the additions- kachumbari, ugali, mutura, kidneys…
   

FOUR PLACES I WOULD RATHER BE NOW

1. Sitting in the garden (or a nyama-choma place like in Kiserian..I want mbuzi choma!!!) with my family, piles of food,cosy chairs and loud music, and my swing
2. On a long road trip with my friends
3. Cosied up anywhere with Mr…sigh (yes….the candlelight scenario as She mentioned would be so lush)
4. Lying on a beach…with nothing on my mind except the sound of the waves…all I’d have to wonder about is what or where to have dinner
   

Playlist:

• Loving you- Javier
• Sending my love- Zhane
• Always there-Incognito ft Jocelyn Brown
• Whoops now- Janet Jackson (this sends me into a cheerful child-like playful mood)
• Please don’t go- Boyz II Men (Modo, I still don’t get why you hate these guys)
• Everyone falls in love sometimes- Tantro Metro and Devonte
  

Little things

I simply adore that song by India.Arie..so true..it’s the little things which really brighten my day..so here’s my ode to the little things in my life

• Waking up to sunny blue skies (though not strictly warm right now..a blue sky always lifts my spirits).
• Receiving a lovely message from a pal…I really needed it..so thanks..and so appreciating the few good friends I have.
• Being brought breakfast in bed…sigh..pure bliss
• Good music….always works
• A sunny day..especially in the afternoon…lying on the grass somewhere…bring on the summer..quick!!
• Babies….there is something so enchanting about them (I just watched a video clip of a baby laughing coz of bn given papers to tear up…it really made my day)..if I could figure out how to post it here I would
• Flowers…unexpected…so it was quite a lovely surprise.
• Food cooked by my mummy…being far from home..you really miss such things..I always wonder why everyone loves their mother’s food (or father’s..whatever your case maybe)
• A good book..I love losing myself in a good story..fictional or not..they really need to open free public libraries with a good selection of books at home.
• Road trips..I adore them..especially as a child..My sister and I used to sit at the back and face the back window to look at the cars behind us..and wave..lol..good times..
• Swings…I love swinging..still excites me..

Songs

• Crush- Zhane
• Little things- India.Arie
• Heaven must have sent you- D’angelo and Erykah Badu
• You- Raheem Devaughn