If I could use a colour to describe my mood, Grey would be the best bet….as Modo says “mathogothanio” would also be another word to describe me now..
Grey…dull..listless..sleepy…muggy…foggy…gah!!..feel like my mind is blocked..and I don’t know why..okie I lie..I do know why..but I just don’t want to think about somethings right now..so the effort of pushing them and keeping them at the back of my mind is wearing me down…. honestly..if there was an extra hard disk in my brain I could store somethings to free up space in my brain..I so would.
Listening to “Somebody already broke my heart”..by Sade…it totally describes my mood..I’d scream..if I had the energy to do so..I’d much rather be angry..or happy..this “not caring or bothering about anything” is starting to bug me..(does that mean it’s about to change? Hope so)
One of my favourite words is “Mollycoddled“…I seriously need some pampering now….Things I’d love right about now:
- Some proper sunshine..not this “now you see it..now you don’t”…I wonder if people who live on islands where its sunny almost 24/7 suffer from depression..or severe blue days..coz even if they close the curtains…the sun still streams through..and makes the room golden…hmmm.
- A long weekend with my best pals…a few evenings full of gossip and some good wine would be so good.
- A day spent in the park…eat..sleep…lazy walking along the river pretending we’re at the beach
- A good book..nothing too sappy or anything that makes me think too hard (don’t have the energy to laugh at the former..and concentrate on the latter).
- A roadtrip….a camping trip..a shopping trip…(key word here bn trip,lol)..cannot wait for the holidays!!
Random thoughts:
1). Mo Ma wrote an interesting post..bout developing a dislike for an acquaintance..I think I’m developing an intense dislike for someone..and its beginning to scare me…sooner or later it’ll begin to show on my face…hmmm…I may well soon qualify for entry to a drama school…never have my emotions been so schooled!!
2). Spent most of the past 2 days watching X-men when I should be studying…(the older Xmen cartoon..not Xmen evolution)..and the thing that struck me was how sooner or later they’d all end up with someone in the unit ama close to the unit: Jean Grey and Scott, Wolverine and Storm, Rogue and Gambet..Xavier and Lelandra.. and it made me wonder what happens to a group of friends when friends start dating friends within the same circle…interesting thought..
Songs for today:
- Sway- Michael Buble (I adore this man’s voice)
- Getting in the way- Jill Scott
- You know what’s up- Donell Jones ft Left Eye
- Got till it’s gone- Janet Jackson
15 responses so far ↓
candybox // April 30, 2008 at 5:04 pm |
When friends starting dating within the circle it can only lead to disaster. It only works in the movies. On dull grey moody days the best thing to reach for is Sainsbury’s own brand chocolate sundae, trust me it works. It’s layered with chocolate sauce, chocolate brownie, white chocolate sauce and chocolate chip mousse topped with whipped cream and chocolate flake.
As you may/may not have noticed, the key word here is chocolate lol.
Sera // April 30, 2008 at 5:55 pm |
Oh, love, get yourself home. Wine and such are details, we’ll organize. How about getting some sun on the beach?
Mo Ma // April 30, 2008 at 5:59 pm |
Candybox, youre killing me.
Val, today I just woke up with this fog over me too. A dense, depressing fog never mind that the sun was out and the temps were in the 30s (C, none of that F stuff here). One would expect to wak up in a good mood after a night spent hanging out till usiku wa manane but…yeah. If you do find a Pensieve, FedEx me one too.
valentia // May 1, 2008 at 7:36 am |
@ Candy..lol..chocolate is always the first thing I reach out for…I’m craving some Mars icecream though..mebe that’ll help
@ Sera…I tell you..a beach trip would be awesome!
@ MoMa….feeling foggy despite the warm weather?? A pensieve would be so handy I tell you
neema // May 1, 2008 at 10:22 am |
just listening to some good music!!!
Tandra // May 1, 2008 at 1:42 pm |
Sowwi’bout the grey… here’s a hug! (((((((((((v))))))))))))
Dunno abt the island peeps every getting grey days.. think they do though.. tis a universal colour, u know (grins)
In circle dating? in addition to obvious uncomfy spots, its boring. Ur friends are ur friends coz they reflect something in u, not always a good side. U wont learn anything new, honestly.. is all im sayin.
Mr. Back2Basics... // May 2, 2008 at 8:21 am |
I like your blog Val..
I do I do..
First off… The sunshining is definitely wanted…
The colour i’m feeling is orange-ish with a hint of black…
You’re listening Sade again…
We need to switch CDs… or atleast share…
Jill, Donell, Janet and Mr.Buble are all hidden in my… (Ooops, almost let it out)
About the friendship date..
If it is an accidental drunken sleep with him/ her sorta thing….
Can be sorted out by closure, if he/ she expects to be the one and he/ she doesn’t reciprocate
if it is developed feelings, and the do date, the group best wish them well…
But then, realities are always tricky innit?
Thanks for dropping this, i liked it!
valentia // May 2, 2008 at 10:58 am |
A Neema…hmm..some music?? at that point nothing was working…I’m bit better now..hint of a golden colour seeping thru the grey
@ Tandra…thanks for the hug (smiles..and hugs back…)but then think of guys who used to be pals then started going out..I just think if ur meant to be then its not a bad thing..but casual dating in the same circle (or bn friends with benefits) is just sooooooo wrong..
@ Mr. B2B…I’m ready to share music anytime
….enhee and where is this that the cds are hidden?? (Val is quite curious)..thanks for the appreciation….its mutual I assure you..(you need to tell me exactly what my role is in ur movie though..lol )..I’m wondering..your colour is orange with a hint of black..what mood is that??
modoathii // May 2, 2008 at 2:09 pm |
well, glad to see you’s improving..and yeah, on that greyness, i feel you. only that i didn’t want to waste my limited brain cells thinking of a colour. I too am slowly getting the sunshine back…vodo and good pals helps loads…
hope you mollycoddle (i liked that word the first time i heard of it) enough…weekendi ndio hii, deal? by monday (tuesday for you) tuko full sunshine…unanonaje, dealio? mammy-oh?
it’s always easy to date from a friends group but yeah, mambo itakuwa moto fo’shu.
wolverine and storm…yikes! wakikasirishana? that will be one wet ‘dog’…
valentia // May 2, 2008 at 4:57 pm |
@ Modo..can we extend this to next weekend…exam on Tuesday..so by then the grey mood will be fully black…after exams..can’t wait to sing Jill Scott’s Golden (the colour I’m aiming for)…good to see ur getting sunshiny again…..
yes by Monday you be posting happy things
Wolverine and Storm..even me I didn’t see that one coming..
antipop // May 3, 2008 at 9:52 am |
you should discover rock music. there is never a grey moment
31337 // May 3, 2008 at 7:35 pm |
we are a few too many grays, huh? Bleh!
boyfulan¿ // May 4, 2008 at 1:04 pm |
mood is color. reminds me of this novel by sidney sheldon, tell me your dreams. the protagonist even gave the voices of people color. like ” there is Uncle Modo speaking, his voice is dark blue..”
great post, when i want to feel in touch with emotions and sentiments, i just drop by
valentia // May 4, 2008 at 8:53 pm |
@ Antipop..I love rock music…seriously..but when I’m feeling grey nothing works..kinda like a fog..just need to let it pass..
@ 31337…hope you’re feeling a bit sunshinier (is that a word?? )
@ Boyfulani…thanks
..I love Sidney Sheldon’s..haven’t read them in ages though
bOMSEH // May 6, 2008 at 8:20 am |
You are developing an intense dislike for someone? Maybe that is the reason for the feeling grey, or maybe the like is not dis but it is not clear yet. You need a trip.