Made a really hard decision today, and I’m still not sure I did the right thing. It feels terrible to hurt someone you care about so right now I’m feeling like a biatch…not liking myself right now. Could this be a big mistake? Something I’ll regret for a long time?? Only time will tell. I’m just trying to do what I know is right. It hurts, but not as much as I thought it would..infact there is a small sense (behind the denial) of relief. Does that make me a bad person?? Oh dear, I hope not. I just can’t deal with unwanted issues right now, and as there is no pensieve in sight, I have to do what I must.
Sultry, this is where your lil tips on being fierce and fabulous would so be appreciated..get to writing. I just want to curl under my covers with a bottomless bottle of Manzana (thanks love for introducing me to this stuff..it rocks!)
So the grey mood is back.. and no sign of any mollycoddling on the way…aarrrgghhh, can’t wait for this cloud to pass.
Last thoughts: Being having a craving for ragga and reggae recently (explains the playlist). I just want to lie on a beach somewhere sunny (preferably the Carribbean islands)…eat hot spicy food and sip cool cocktails…sigh, if only wishes were horses…
Songlist:
- Galang Gal- TOK
- Juice riddim (not sure of the song..but errmm yeah)- TOK and Bounty Killa
- That girl- Sean Paul, Lady Saw, Beenie Man
- Hot wuk riddim- Mr Vegas
- Suzie- Tantro Metro and Devonte
- Connection- Sean Paul ft Nina Sky
- Too young- Buju Banton and Cocoa Tea
- Hotta fire- TOK
- Mr. Loverman- Shabba Ranks (trip down memory lane with this one)
