Made a really hard decision today, and I’m still not sure I did the right thing. It feels terrible to hurt someone you care about so right now I’m feeling like a biatch…not liking myself right now. Could this be a big mistake? Something I’ll regret for a long time?? Only time will tell. I’m just trying to do what I know is right. It hurts, but not as much as I thought it would..infact there is a small sense (behind the denial) of relief. Does that make me a bad person?? Oh dear, I hope not. I just can’t deal with unwanted issues right now, and as there is no pensieve in sight, I have to do what I must.
Sultry, this is where your lil tips on being fierce and fabulous would so be appreciated..get to writing. I just want to curl under my covers with a bottomless bottle of Manzana (thanks love for introducing me to this stuff..it rocks!)
So the grey mood is back.. and no sign of any mollycoddling on the way…aarrrgghhh, can’t wait for this cloud to pass.
Last thoughts: Being having a craving for ragga and reggae recently (explains the playlist). I just want to lie on a beach somewhere sunny (preferably the Carribbean islands)…eat hot spicy food and sip cool cocktails…sigh, if only wishes were horses…
Songlist:
- Galang Gal- TOK
- Juice riddim (not sure of the song..but errmm yeah)- TOK and Bounty Killa
- That girl- Sean Paul, Lady Saw, Beenie Man
- Hot wuk riddim- Mr Vegas
- Suzie- Tantro Metro and Devonte
- Connection- Sean Paul ft Nina Sky
- Too young- Buju Banton and Cocoa Tea
- Hotta fire- TOK
- Mr. Loverman- Shabba Ranks (trip down memory lane with this one)
13 responses so far ↓
threetypesofcrazy // May 16, 2008 at 7:36 pm |
all the questions before and now we are here.
There is not much I can say, “this too shall pass.” I hope the grey clouds zoom past.
Sybella // May 17, 2008 at 6:42 am |
sorry valentia. it is most likely the right thing although it doesn’t feel like it at the moment…
Mo Ma // May 17, 2008 at 8:53 am |
*bearhug*
Things have to get worse before they get better.
I shall once again magnanimously share my happy song (I should start charging royalties for it).
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HxabD-w6QGQ
You don’t have to geech the lyrics; just float along on the ecstasy that the singer is feeling.
Mwangi - the Displaced African // May 18, 2008 at 5:17 pm |
While you are in the ragga/ reggae mood, may as well do it right:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=Viiwbxn78Ko
Tandra // May 18, 2008 at 8:13 pm |
those hard decisions to make are usually the important ones and somehow always work for the best.. this too shall come to pass
sultrynutter // May 18, 2008 at 11:18 pm |
Don’t u dare curl up in bed… and if thats where u are right now TABIA MBOF!
In all honesty its only as bad as u make it — stop thinking about it n smile! and the manzana should only be for celebrating!!
I’ve posted a few of the “guidelines” I follow.
boyfulan¿ // May 19, 2008 at 6:39 am |
hey Gal, i been missing yeah vybe and i come in to find you still in the lovely groove i adore.am not good with emotions, save for he-motions, but the gray cloud is passing soon enough and mollycoddling is just round tha’ corner.cheer up!
boyfulan¿ // May 19, 2008 at 6:42 am |
Ya vybe***pole 4 the typo.
neema // May 19, 2008 at 11:44 am |
it will definetly pass…trust me!
valentia // May 19, 2008 at 3:00 pm |
@ 3TOC..yep..reason for some..not all of the questions..thanks though.
@ Syb…yep..doesn’t feel right but I know it is..the mature decision (I don’t like growing up)
@ MoMa…**bearhugs back** thanks hun…plus that song..hmm..not a fan of classical music but yes..shall give it a listen.
@ Mwangi..I love Diana King already…I need to go to Jamaica asap!
@ Tandra…agree with u
@ Sultry…kwanza I’m going to reply on your new post…thanks..here’s to a new fierce and fab me!
@ Boyfulani…awww…thanks a bunch
@ Neema…it will pass…by force or otherwise!
31337 // May 19, 2008 at 8:32 pm |
seems i showed up a mite late. ((((((((v)))))))))
valentia // May 19, 2008 at 8:51 pm |
@ 31337…its never too late (if thats a hug..hugs back)
modoathii // May 27, 2008 at 5:52 am |
yeah, i knw by now the cloud’s gone…but the beats a gwan’
heheheh…mambo na catching up….