Anniversaries and Playlists

Its the end of the year…So much has changed. Was trying to remember where I was this time last year and boy, does life change when you least expect it!

Just realised that my 1 year anniversary as a blogger passed a few days ago. (Yeah Val!!!) What a ride! When I started this blog I never knew what to expect..or if I’d be as honest as I have found myself being. Its been fun reading other people’s blogs as well, you learn things, laugh like crazy, and find yourself relating to people you’ve never met.

So as the crazy one suggested, a playlist to close the year. This one will encompass some of my favourites, though I may skip some coz I don’t have my comp with me (sigh, my poor baby is about to get replaced soon!). So yeah, as usual feel free to add on to the list. Let’s party (or chill-out, or whatever you feel like doing).

Songs I like to dance to

• Single ladies- Beyonce ( Love it! “If you like then you should have put a ring on it”!!!!)
• Get me bodied- Beyonce
• If that’s your boyfriend- Meshell Ndegeocello (kinda rude but I still like it)
• Boyfriend/Girlfriend- C-side ft Keyshia Cole
• Touch my body (remixes included)- Mariah Carey
  

Songs that chill me out

• Still with you- Eric Benet
• Anytime, anyplace- Janet Jackson
• When it hurts- Avant
• Angel- Anita Baker
• So in love- Curtis Mayfield
• Special girl- Donell Jones
• Better man- Toni Braxton
• Love you down- INOJ
• 24/7- 3T (Weren’t these boys so cute!!)
• Whip appeal- Babyface
• Late night rendevous- Carl Thomas
• Under the weather- KT Tunstall
• Shawty is a 10 (all versions of this song!!)- The Dream
• Teenage love affair- Alicia Keys
• She got her own- Neyo ft Jamie Foxx and Fabulous

Neo-soul loves

• Gotta get up- Jill Scott
• Weekend love- Dwele
• Satisfy- Meshell Ndegeocello
• You make life so good- Rahsaan Patterson
• Hold my hand-Van Hunt
• Whatever you want- Jazzy Jeff
• Ribbon in the sky- Intro (such a sweet song)
• Adore -Prince (I love this man!!!)

Some hip-hop (ish) joints

• Getting up- Q-tip
• One more drink- Ludacris (This video is too funny)
• Live your life- TI ft Rihanna
• We don’t care- Kanye West
• Love Rehab- Twista ft R. Kelly
• Thinking of you- Tyga ft Lil Wayne (I somehow can’t get over Weezy)
• Turning heads- Dem Franchize Boys

Soulful tracks

• I need you now- Smokie Norful
• Through it all- Deitrick Haddon
• In the midst of it all- Yolanda Adams
• Jesus is love- The Commodores

Oldie but goodie

• Could it be I’m falling in love -The Spinners
• Working my way back to you babe- The Spinners
• Can’t get enough of your love – Barry White
• Turn off the lights- Teddy Pendegrass
• Super Freak- Rick James

Some reggae and ragga

• Worker man- Patra
• Easy Skanking- Bob Marley
• Beautiful lady- Gyptian
• Is this love- Bob Marley

Hint of rock here and there

• Weathered- Creed
• One thing- Finger Eleven
• Elvis ain’t dead- Scouting for Girls
• Heart go faster- The Davey Brothers

The African connection

• Makoti- Yvonne ChakaChaka
• Manzi wa Nairobi (This will forever remain my song!)
• Sinzia- Nameless (He def hit the right spot with this)
• Masakhane-Miriam Makeba
• Kushoto Kulia- P-unit (heehee)

Okie so I can’t put up ALL my favourite tracks here…and have definitely missed some of my key players like Sade, Jagged Edge, Floetry, Oliver Mtukudzi and other amazing African singers, some Spanish music (Marc Anthony and Juanes..woop!!)…But yeah. Just a taste.

So to all who read this blog, and to those other amazing bloggers out there…must say HAPPY NEW YEAR! Hope you have a blessed year!

Nerves

Update: So I lost my nerve and took the dress back……(the orangey one…still have the grey one)….

Still on the hunt for my perfect dress…..one that is a wowowo reducer rather than one that enhances it……that I think is one of the reasons why I do not wear dresses….

And yes please don’t judge and start telling me to love the wowowo…Its one of those things that I’m sensitive about..and don’t like people talking about it….in any way….so in hind sight, no matter how lovely it was, it would have definitely brought up a comment or two, so maybe its for the best…..

Mixing it up

Today is a proper mix of emotions…and right now I’m okie with it…

I’m confused….my so called love life has taken some unexpected twists and turns…but I’m not worried…what I keep telling myself is that I’m simply not listening very hard to God’s voice…or mebe God has not chosen this as the time to show me the right path…so it will all be sorted out in time…..

New beginnings…went and got me 2 dresses…yes dresses! For the girl who NEVER wears dresses, then its definitely a momentous occassion for me…one is a grey wrap dress, nice for day to day…and the other, a red-orangish dress (depends with the lighting)…now this one highlights ALL my curves…plus the wowowo seemas bigger than ever…and some part of me doesn’t care…..I felt quite adventurous and giddy when I bought it….and I’m trying not to take it back to the shop…..hmmm…let’s see how this week goes…

So my friend’s relatives came over yesterday, to make us a proper British Christmas dinner. Wasn’t that nice of them?? I ate until I thought I would burst. We had turkey with stuffing, roast beef, carrots, potatoes, broccoli, and other assorted veg I can’t remember…with boats of gravy…and some mince pies and Christmas pudding…I’m not too keen on the pies and the pudding…but it was still a nice gesture. Their kids are so cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!! I started to feel broody, then they opened their mouths…and the noise levels made my head ache..I literally had to go to bed early….head actually throbbing.plus all the running around!!!! The noise resumed first thing in the morning…and the mess of things….wah!!!! Okie that just re-affirmed that I’m not ready to have kids…parents are saints!!! And I definitely was NOT that noisy as a child!!!

Ooohh…before I forget, entered the Cartier shop..and at first, I didn’t want to enter coz I was in jeans and Bata Bullets….but gosh the sales attendants are so nice!!!!!!!!! One even let me try on an engagement ring..my eyes were dazzled!!!!! And it felt so beautiful…..and so sparkly!! And it fit!!! Rings usually don’t fit coz my fingers are slender…but this one…sigh!! I’m in love!! So I must be able to buy myself something from that shop….thats a definite!!! Not a ring, like a pair of earrings or a watch or something…

Here’s something similar to what I tried…

Playing:

Diva- Beyonce (though the video is so disappointing! The way I waited for it..even stalked the web til it came out…)

Re-birth

Went through a couple of my previous posts, and noticed that my posts had gotten sadder since the start of this semester. This means its time for a change. I mean I was reading my posts from early on this year, and I had a smile on my face coz I can remember exactly what was going on in my life when I was writing those posts. But its hard for me to read the latter posts…some are so painful that I just skip right past them.

From my attitude toward God and my spiritual life, my relationships with my family, friends and men, to my issues with food and weight….that all needs to change!

I want..no need to be happy. Recover my sanity and my self-esteem (esteem of the self **love Katt Williams*** he speaks the truth!!!) And all this needs to come from me. Not anyone else.

God, I kinda lost faith. I can see that from my behaviour. The decline in the church visits, the bible study sessions, spiritual readings etc. I think when I was going through those hard emotional times, I turned away from HIS presence, rather than turn towards Him. Which is wrong,,,,and probably why I felt so crappy at times. I need to find my way back to Him..

Men, come to realise that maybe I’m not cut out for this relationship vybe.  Seriously. I’m tired, so tired….right now I feel single..even act single at times though I’m supposed to be in a relationship. But what kind of relationship is this? How can someone refuse to talk to me for over 2 weeks and still think everything is ok? Sending me a “Merry Christmas” text today. That was the extent of communication received. And what is surprising me is that I’m not as upset as I would be. Normally I’d be so pissed…so mad!! We’d fight until we come to some sort of decision. But not this time…seriously I can’t be bothered. I honestly feel that we’re slowly heading down the break-up route…but it shall be his decision. Not planning to rush anything. To be honest I’m not totally innocent, as any person I’ve done my fair share of damage….but this silence? Too much. Maybe its age….am I ready??? I don’t want to give that much of myself away anymore….no…nope! Then we have blasts from the past. Today made the decision to honestly stop talking to my first ex. It hurts too much. Even a simple holiday greeting from him has the power to keep me awake for ages, with a gnawing feeling in my tummy. I need to delete him completely and utterly, exorcise every memory from my bank.

Okie so this post feels like a journal entry to me……(breathing audibly)..feels good to have that out! Not saying that these are New Year resolutions (seeing as I’m planning to do them today)…so yeah, let’s just call them changes shall we? Christmas is as good a day as any…it is a day for re-birth. The birth of our Saviour….feels like the right time for my re-birth as well.

Today was a nice day. My girl and I stuffed a chicken according to Jamie’s recipe. See it here:

http://www.jamieoliver.com/recipes/meat-recipes/perfect-roast-chicken

It was yummy!!! We ate it with potatoes…then had some caramel icecream and settled in to watch Stomp the Yard. Oh my…but si there are some fine men in that movie!!!!!!!!! Fine!!!!!!!!!! Sigh….

Hope y’all had a good Christmas xx

Jesus is love

Title of one of my fav songs…Watch it here: http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=UQPKBkW6a1s

Christmas….Woop!!!

I miss Christmas as a child….the mandatory shopping for a special outfit:

• Flowery dress (with netting underneath)
• Socks (Flowery with lace on them)
• Shoes (Shiny with cute bows at the top)
• Hair ties (with smily faces or bows)

The food:

• Chappati
• Pilau
• Beef stew
• Roast mbuzi
• Kidneys, mutura and various ndani bits
• Various vegetables
• Roast chicken
• Chicken stew

And on…..and on…….

I drive myself crazy remembering……

Okie anyhu…..just have to make the best of what I’ve got now right??

Me, myself and I………might have a change of status soon…and not a happy one…but oh well, this time twill be his decision….and as I said I can’t force issues on people…..

Anyhu, Merry Christmas bloggers..and readers.

I’m off to tuck my feet under a blanket and watch some movie with me girlie….humming

I’m gonna stay right under the blood
I’m gonna stay right under the blood
I’m gonna stay right under the blood
And the devil won’t do me no harm

I used to sing it as a child….I love it…watch a video of the song here: http://museke.com/index.php?q=node/1447

God Bless!