“No” really does mean “no”

I’ll have you know that I am not the type of girl who says no when I mean yes. My “no” means “no”, it is not the pause before a “yes” or “maybe”.

Mr B2B, lemme borrow your “qouting time” for a minute ok? Copied this verbatim from an email my pal sent to me. (We were talking about how she could get rid of a certain persistent unwanted admirer..this is part ofwhat she said to him). In this day and age we still have men who don’t take NO for an answer..and believe they can still “win” you by constantly irritating the heck out of your life. The type who believes that if they’re in your face long enough, you’ll start to see another side of them..a side that will instantly make you fall at his feet. Hmphh!!!

But why? Like seriously I don’t understand such men..

• Is it that they don’t believe the woman they have fallen for could reject them?
• Ama they believe they are God’s gift to women therefore it never occurs to them that there are a couple of women out there who would refuse their advances?
• Ama they think you don’t know what it is you really want…so when you tell him “No” you really mean “Yes”?
• Ama they think you are playing hard to get?

Too many questions in my mind…Help me out here. What do you tell a man who refuses to accept that you have refused his advances??

Playlist:

• It’s over- John Legend ft Kanye
• Gills and tails- Amel Larrieux
• Fortunate- Maxwell
• Ritwa Riaku- Eric Wanaina

Blowing away the dust and cobwebs

Dear blog of mine…how I have missed you..

Anyhu…just need some space to vent..mebe whine a bit. So here goes:

• My skin has decided to break out in the worst way…painful pimples in every direction. I’m missing the smooth skin so these unwanted visitors need to be gone. Now!
• Haven’t replied to messages or emails for ages now…and I feel really bad. Its not like I’m ignoring people..but I only have the energy to twitter now. Anything that requires more than 140 characters and is not exam related is beyond my reach at the moment.
• Being having a bad case of headaches everyday…the kind that are so painful that you feel like crying..just to ease a bit of the build-up in the head..of course crying does no good..just makes it worse….yes I can feel the stirrings of a headache now…*sad face*
• My room (and by extension the rest of the house) looks like a right mess right about now. I can’t move without tripping on clothes, papers, books, coffee mugs and random shoes….and since I haven’t bn cleaning up the house (ok I had a fit and washed the kitchen at midnight jana but that was a once-off) you can just imagine what the house looks like. Not pretty at all!
• Haven’t eaten proper food in eons! I either have a slice of toast or simply forget to eat..sigh. This is not improving my mood in the least..and when baby sis calls me to talk about chappatis and beef stew, my initial reaction is to smash the phone against the wall and cry…
• I need mollycoddling….seriously..So much self-maintainance is needed now…from face masks to get rid of the craters on my face, pedicure session to baby my feet…to a nice bottomless glass of wine…and ooh yes a good book..soon
• Feeling sorry for the BFF, sister and mom…all they ever hear is whining and more whining. Thank God for unconditional love huh?

Sniff…sniff….sulk sulk…

There I feel a tad bit better now….

Playlist:

• Prototype- Jazmine Sullivan
• Gachungwa- Stan (this song is on repeat so much I’m scared Imeem will block me from playing it..I need the album!)
• So close..yet so far- Hoobastank
• Love- John Mclaughlin (Him and Stan are competing for the number 1 spot in my heart at the moment).

Why is it…

…that everytime I have something urgent to do, say coursework or prepare for a looming horror(read exam), I always find other things to occupy self? These include:

• Try not to panic.
• That doesn’t work out so panic all the same..
• Talk to self…let out little screams here and there when it seems the universe is ganging up against me.
• Talk to others in the same boat…so we end up panicking even worse.
• Wonder if we should be panicking at this point or working..
• So I start working again.
• Mind goes blank..
• Shot of coffee in the system.
• I know there is a reason I don’t drink coffee..Feels all jittery and high energied inside. Yikes!
• Back to working.
• Repeat cycle when the coffee boost ends.

Random notes:

• Thanks for the zee hugs and comments on the previous post. Hope you’re having a better weekend.
• Cooked yesterday..but the experiment didn’t go as planned..so no photos..that sucketh yes?